Friday, June 27, 2008
Will make this a short one. Really need to study my normal distribution. Fuck, i dont know what im doing here.
Today physics was like...HOLY SHIT MAN. lols. hopefully all the force question can get correct. And let me scrape pass everything. Fuck, feel like im losing my life. Maybe myself, i'll lose myself. I feel it. Fuck. Really shitty.
I want to study but something is always stopping me from studying. Like what im doing now. See, i hate it.
I will learn to pull through this, for a better life.
Monday, June 23, 2008
Today is maths paper 1. Really shitty. Dont want to talk too much about it. Later people say this and that, full of shit. I cant even say what i want to say. lols. i dont mind actually. Cause there's shit to talk about in this paper. Hopefully paper 2 can pull me up, to at least a pass. Fuck, i feel so god damn lousy. I need to buck up.
Realise my blog the song all quite peaceful. lols. Feel like putting songs i like. I really like Rihanna.
A little bit more of me, faith and hope
Saturday, June 21, 2008
Today, something happen. Haha, maybe not surprising to most of you but to me is...ahem...
When i was using the computer, and watching some youtube stuffs, suddenly, i saw something, i freak out. Cause it really shocked me. lols. A cockroach slightly or maybe more than slightly bigger than my thumb was crawling beside my speaker, which is really close to the mouse i was holding...-.-. Its one of the biggest cockroach i have seen in my life! lols. Its legs like hairy hairy one. Wa lao, the thought of it make me puke. lols. Then i realised, i've gotta catch it, CAUSE NO ONE IS AT HOME!!! lols. i hurry to the kitchen to get some newspaper, so i wouldnt lose it. I ran there and back, and luckily it was still there, i move my computer and mouse and speakers really slowly, and i mean really. lols. I was surprised it didnt move at all. Its so freaking big!!! When there was space for me to crash it, i...BANG!!! I hold really tight down to the newspaper, to make sure it cant escape. But when i brought the newspaper up, it was not there. And yes, i did squeezed the newspaper...-.-. I was so scared that it would fly, fly around like those stereotype big cockroaches would. And maybe fly into my mouth while screaming, lols. So comical, lols. BUT it didnt. lols. it run behind my computer and got stuck at a dead end, i didnt fly, didnt climb up the wall. ONE REALLY WEIRD COCKROACH. It was like limbing because i think i injure its hind legs. lols. it crawl in a weird way. Then i move everything again. AND...BANG!!! Haha! This time i hold really really tight down and in additon, i press down the side really hard to make sure that it has NO WAY OUT! HAHA! I WIN!! lols! i FUCKING caught the bloody BIG cockroach! VICTORY! When holding it down my hands were trembling, cause i was so nervous. lols. I quickly crash the newspaper and ran to the kitchen to dumb it down the rubbish chute. i sigh for relief, lols. I never catch a cockroach before to be honest. yaya! whatever you might say. i dont care. lols.
I WIN!
Hope the MYE would be like that bloody cockroach, BANG! and die. haha!
Friday, June 20, 2008
Went studying in school for quite a few days now. No more work can replace the time i lost during the first three weeks. But, nevertheless, i still need to study, thats why im need here.
I not so much worried for my mid years, but rather, i am worried for my A's.
I wasted far too much time pondering over stuff of least importance to me now. Maybe this is a phase of my life i need to go through before i can set my thoughts straight.
I wonder if my thoughts are straight now. Well, at least i know what i should and should not do. Whats good for me and whats not. Sometime life brings much surprises to you, sometimes, its not what you expected, not what you want. But you gonna accept that, because its your life. You cant change it not matter how much you try to, and thats when you realise you have got to accept it. But is it all that easy to embrace it. Obviously it is not. Maybe after overcoming all this, you become what you are, or rather become what makes you a better person.
Life is not a straight path, there's some turns, some crossroads, some hill, some bridges and most of all there are checkpoints. When you reach the checkpoint of your life, you must ask yourself, is this what you want. Sometimes, it not. People say life's a one way journey. But, i believe that sometimes, there is a godsend U-turn. Go back to where you were, and make everything better. But what if there isnt? Thats when you are stuck in the phase of your life you cant seem to escape. Maybe you will wait for some rescue truck, maybe you decide to stay at that point, or maybe you take a chance to go against the traffic flow to make things better. But, you might crash, or you might make it. Thats all part of life.
You choose, you decide. And for me, i will wait for the correct time to make a turn, but until then, i will just take the path everyone's taking.
Seems like someone who knows shit about life is talking about it. What an irony. If only i knew which path was best for me.
Friday, June 13, 2008
Finally got time to upload the pics from alvin's birthday. Here they are,
Happy Birthday Alvin!
Seem happy? lols.
4 hum, i miss you guys
The guai lan people. lols.
The cake was delicious
Wish i could go back to sec4. no worries, i miss all the people there. Should meet up more often. I love talking crap with you guys.
Super sian now, i cant get to work, i keep procastinating. im sick of it. i seriously need help. i so bloody screwed, someone help me.
Wednesday, June 11, 2008
P.S. for people who are sensitive to study matters, PLEASE LEAVE.
Nothing to do at home. Roting away. Shit man. I totally screwed, i havent even started anything. Hai, whole holiday, the only thing i learn was GP! OMG! And GP paper is like long over! SHIT!
I have learnt something, procrastinating doesnt help at all! BUT thats my main characteristic. HOW HOW?!?!?
How i wish i could just skip this period of life...
Maybe, this is a test. A test, before i enter the next phase of my life. Much happiness awaiting in front of me.? I certainly hope so. Cause alot is going through my head now. Not only studies. These things cant just get out of my head like i want them to. Cause it doesnt happen in reality. Im trying to cope with it. Maybe once i accept it, i will become a better person. All the way man. Screw all those fuckers out there. If you think you know me, think twice. No one knows who i am, cause i dont even know it myself.
This is not an emo post. Im a happy person. And you know im telling the truth. lols.
Monday, June 09, 2008
Yesterday went to celebrate Alvin birthday with the usual people. lols. Talk alot of rubbish and crap. Got some really interesting and i mean REALLY INTERESTING news. lols. damn funny. laugh like mad. lols. I miss you guys (inclusive of you girls.-.-. of course). Damn funny. Ate fish and co. new york fish and chip. If i remembered the name correctly. not bad, quite nice. Never bought anything for alvin, except for the cake, so guilty. Yar, xiang yi then suggested to treat alvin, so i chip in lor. lols. So feel not so bad. lols. i suck at being a friend. forgive me. Later went balcony, drank a shot (brain tumor) then went home, as i got class at bugis at 9am today. Must go clubbing on xiang yi's birthday!
Will post the pics when i've got it.
Today woke up at 7.20, left house at about 7.55am, as amos say he will be late. Reach station at about 8.05-8.15 like that, yar, after buying bread. lols.
The crash course at SoT, was SO FUCKING GOOD! I havent even heard of those methods of answering before! Omg. What if i didnt go.? I totally cant imagine. Heng man. Really worth the cost.
i will be happy. i must be happy. i am happy. Leave those thing behind, sweep them off your shoulder, stand tall. No one can decide how i want to live my life, i've got the ultimate power to control it.
Monday, June 02, 2008
Finally back to the blog. Hai. Wanted to talk about that day went shopping with the guys, yar. Quite fun lah, keep crapping only nia. Bought some stuffs, not alot though. But not too bad too. Yar really wanted to buy a pair of shades, but i got no daily contact lens, as a matter of fact, i have no contacts, yar. Wear shades like not too bad, maybe will buy one for prom, if the rest of the class buy it. Whole class wear go, steady sia. Chuen was trying to look like a moron by wearing red shades. lols.
Left my wallet at topman after paying!! Luckily gh was behing me, and help me take. He was not very sure it was mine, he said something like, take first, if not yours then return. Actually he didnt really saw it too, it was at the corner. Luckily his plastic bag or something hit it, or something like that lar. Anyway, really want to thank him for that. That day went shopping, so brought quite a sum of money, yar. Damn heng, or else i totally screwed liao!! Sure die de.
Anyway, i went for 128km bike rally yesterday! WOW! i cant even believe i completed it. At the second checkpoint my finger already numb, it was really bad. I cant really feel it, ok maybe can but like that numbness, feels very weird. Till now its still numb, THATS MORE THAN 24HOURS ALREADY. When will it get better?!?!? Shit man. Damn sian to feel the numbness in my hands lar.
Anway, really tired but i did feel a sense of accomplishment. Not bad for someone like me rite? lols. Not super fit or what but at least completed it. Took about 11hours to complete it with six checkpoint breaks and halfway-stop-at-bus-stop breaks. lols. So maybe got breaks about 1-2 hours? 2 hours break seem too long. lols. If it was yesterday, 2hours would seem too short. lols.
Alot of things happen along the way, very interesting, lols. but i too lazy to type, can come ask me lar. talk easier. lols.
Anyway great job guys! we completed 128km!!
