I not so much worried for my mid years, but rather, i am worried for my A's.
I wasted far too much time pondering over stuff of least importance to me now. Maybe this is a phase of my life i need to go through before i can set my thoughts straight.
I wonder if my thoughts are straight now. Well, at least i know what i should and should not do. Whats good for me and whats not. Sometime life brings much surprises to you, sometimes, its not what you expected, not what you want. But you gonna accept that, because its your life. You cant change it not matter how much you try to, and thats when you realise you have got to accept it. But is it all that easy to embrace it. Obviously it is not. Maybe after overcoming all this, you become what you are, or rather become what makes you a better person.
Life is not a straight path, there's some turns, some crossroads, some hill, some bridges and most of all there are checkpoints. When you reach the checkpoint of your life, you must ask yourself, is this what you want. Sometimes, it not. People say life's a one way journey. But, i believe that sometimes, there is a godsend U-turn. Go back to where you were, and make everything better. But what if there isnt? Thats when you are stuck in the phase of your life you cant seem to escape. Maybe you will wait for some rescue truck, maybe you decide to stay at that point, or maybe you take a chance to go against the traffic flow to make things better. But, you might crash, or you might make it. Thats all part of life.
You choose, you decide. And for me, i will wait for the correct time to make a turn, but until then, i will just take the path everyone's taking.
Seems like someone who knows shit about life is talking about it. What an irony. If only i knew which path was best for me.